Saturday, January 19, 2008
♥ 11:25 PM
Positively, your best.
Friends,
I'll be positively, my best.
I won't give up, and I won't give in.
I'm trying real hard, but its a slow uphill climb.
Its really hard. How do you give up something that was right there?
Alot of times I ask myself what's wrong with me.
I really don't know why I'm still here.
Its not good. Physically, mentally.
I'm not going as far as I'd like to.
I'm not pushing as much as I could.
Come on jaime, you need to do this for yourself.
You need to be somebody.
You need to show yourself, your more than just a
reject.You need to be something!
You try so hard everyday to get through the days.
And you do. But you're not doing your best.
Why jaime, tell me why?
You are given so much, yet you do so little.
I'm so sick and tired of your whining and mourning in your head.
Your complaining and your cursing.
Its enough okay, you don't get everything you want.
God gives you enough already okay.
Can you be satisfied for once?
What the hell is wrong with you jaime maria tan?
Just cause one single person doesn't care, doesn't mean you shouldn't right?
Some people's jobs are to break hearts, but yours is to mend them, and cheer them up.
Why are you staying still?
I can't stand you anymore, jaime!
WHY CAN'T YOU DO SOMETHING!
Sure, you think she deserves nothing.
For what you hear of heartlessness.
But none of this is for you to judge, do you understand?
I hate you for being this stupid whiny brat.
STOP. People can cry for 8 months.
But I won't let you complain even.
Because you know more than to just keep taking away chances.
And stealing. Stealing the things that other people want and are willing to pay for.
I don't care what you wanna say anymore. just stop.
Please. You need to concentrate.
You NEED to perform your role now.
Student, athlete, friend, sister.
That's who you are.
Not, girl with a heck of a social life since the age of 13.
That's not you. you don't even have the time.
So, I'm urging you once more.
To. Stop. The. Hell. Of. This. Whole. Rubbish.
Its your choice. And you can do what you want.
Jaime, listen to yourself. For once.
OKAY.
I need to scream at myself for being so stupid. :D
One week flew by again.
And I'm flying with the wind.
Time for studies.
JIAYOU JAIME.
"its not fair, it never is"what you want, you never get.
jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
