Sunday, September 30, 2007
♥ 4:02 PM
Today is a good day.
Oh, happy day!
Today is a happy day!
I'm happy with the things that have happened.
And I'm happy with the people I've met.
Yes yes. Its a good way to end a month and start off a new week.
Yesyes. Its time to study hard and take the leap.
We're all little chicks learning to fly.
One step at a time, people!
Study study!
Today has been good.
I like the things that have happened today.
Time to go run off and mug mug mug!
I shall not be seen online till exams are over.
Or at least not on this blog.:D
till next time!
"I know you're jeaaalous!:D"jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, September 29, 2007
♥ 8:19 PM
Eleven days till the end of exams.
I have to have to study.
Ayeee. I
hate hate HATE this feeling of arghness.
It downright sucks.
You know?
How much people can change and how much you'd change and how much you'll leave behind? And how much you know you'll change and do so much and never get the friendships that you want forged in the way you want it?
But Aunty Michelle says its either Go, Grow, No or Slow.
I'll just do my best. But I really don't want to think about this anymore.
It is hell. HELL, hell.
DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
Okay, its been a hectic week.
I haven't studied much.
Tonight. All night stand with my books, ey?
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
Okay. I shouldn't be here anymore. And you shouldn't see me here till 11 days.
I really don't want to blog or come online during exam period.
I know I shouldn't be.
Temptations. Haii.
Okaaaay. In order to pass EOYs, I should go now.
Gooooooodbyee loveliess.(:
"I ruined a friendship before it even began."jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Sunday, September 23, 2007
♥ 11:28 PM
FEAST DAY!was the bomb, is the bomb and will forever be the bomb!:D
It was great. Disco-ing and truth or dare them all.
Its fun, really. Sureeeeee, a little draggy the front bit, but it was great altogether!
We played truth or dare at out sixty-nine table and yeah, it was coooool.
It was the greatest. No elaboration needed.(:
We took the 1am bus back. Supposed to take the 12am bus, but, HEH.
You knoww, disco-ing is too fun.
Time flies when you're going crazy, really.
And when we got into the bus, everybody was half dead.
But it was very very very very goooooooood.(:
Today, we had pract for children's day.
And we went for lunch!:DDDDD
We played truth or dare/dare or dare.
It was REALLLLLYY funny.
And it was greaaaat fun.
The kind of fun, you'll never have in school, ever.
And then I came home to sleep, and I went off for golf.
GOLF GOLF GOLF!
I played considerably well today! Which is really good.(:
I like golf. It releases stress. It kills people in your mind.
It takes away your worries. Its realllly goooood.:D!
And then I came home, and I wanted to play more.
Its not my fault, really.
Its not my fault people make me feel shitty.
But, whatevs.(:
Golf is goooood.
And then, I was trying to do work.
Quite productive I guess.
At least I didn't end up staring at the table or dreaming into space.
I hope I'll finish everything in time.
DID YOU KNOW THAT ENGLISH SA IS ON TUESDAY!
Oh fishh.
Eighteen more days.
Its longer than it seems. So much longer. :/
Ahh wells.
I'll try to keep offline.
And you can message me, yes.
But my messages have already exceeded.
But that won't stop me. NYAHAHAHA!
Night one and all!
"Slap me, if you please."jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, September 22, 2007
♥ 12:28 AM
One week ban didn't work.
Well at least I didn't blog.
After exams, i'm gonna be an active kid.
GOLF RUN GOLF RUN GOLF RUN RUN, I hope!
I sooo want to play like that!
And go out. That is the life.
Feast day tomorrow.
I am excited! So much fun.
Wheeeee. But before that we gotta mug mug mug!
That's what you get for taking exams.
If you want to think I'm inferior, I really can't stop you.If you want to think You're superior, I can't stop you either.All I can do is be the best person I can, and hope for the best."And that's the classic love story"jaime.
rather disorganised, I know.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Sunday, September 16, 2007
♥ 4:36 PM
Hello world!
Exams are in 2 weeks.
Mug mug mug! Cram cram cram!
JIA YOU JIA YOU!
So, I want to overachieve and get 9A1s, big deal.
Not like its going to happen, anyways.
Next week is the beginning of afternoon study.
Yippeee! I'll be forced to study.
And my darling computer shall not tempt me.
So, technically, I don't want to come online till Friday after CL.
So people, sms me if you want to keep me company. DO NOT ASK ME TO COME ONLINE.
I shall murder you and cook curry with your bones if you do.
I will resist the urge to come online!
I have to train too!
I refuse to be murdered on the track by seniors, people, whatever.
I will train, I will train, I will train.
I will study, I will study, I will study!
Seriously, shoot yourself and die. What time consuming! Can you open your eyes to the world?! People try to conceal their busy schedules so they aren't deemed weak. You beef up your extremely empty schedule so that people can pity you. Oh please lah. Like anybody would do that. Nobody cares. Everybody has their own life to lead, their own things to cope with. Time is precious, who's gonna waste their time pitying. Fluke, that's what it is. You don't deserve to be getting what you do. You can barely cope with what you have. With more, I pity them. Seriously, you're gonna get yourself into trouble. You'll never rise beyond what you have, cause its fluke. And the rest of the world, please stop saying that our class chair is not efficient, cause I will really slaughter you if you did. You chose her, deal with it. Thank you.
And now, I have to go for golf.
Ciao!
"I'm giving up on my little time consuming fantasies."jaime.
seeyou in 5 days!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
♥ 10:50 PM
Happy Birthday Me!
I AM 14!
Here are my list of 14 things to do.
I have a list of 20 in my file, but those are different.
These are promises I'll make to myself. (:
1) I promise to study hard and give my best no matter what.
2) I promise to train hard and not slack off and be driven.
3) I promise to stop being distracted by people and things.
4) I promise to be less mean and more kind.
5) I promise to stop complaining.
6) I promise to be a well behaved girl.
7) I promise to make sure that I don't become a despo maniac.
8) I promise to be persistent and hardworking.
9) I promise to help people in need.
10)I promise to make people see what they do wrong.
11)I promise to be responsible.
12)I promise to be less greedy.
13)I promise to be serious.
14)I promise to keep as many of my promises as possible.
I can't promise not to have false hope, because its human nature.:/
I'm 14 with 14 promises on my mind. I'll fulfill them.
14 with more responsibilities, more things on my mind.
I'm fourteen. fourteen years of joy and laughter.
so many years more. positive attitude, let's go.
With hope on my mind and faith in my heart.
Take it away, forget yesterday. Regretless we stand.
Now and forever. Memories faded, but never forgotten.
"I could have been there."jaime.
but i chose not to be, and to do what I want to.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Sunday, September 09, 2007
♥ 4:14 PM
A very solemn goodbye to the holidays. A very solemn goodbye to the often computer visits. And a very sad and unpleasant welcome to the whole bunch of studying that I have gotten myself into for starting to go to school in 2000. Pffsh.
Tomorrow is the new term. And I just finished my homework. I haven't studied. YAY ME!(: I am sooo dead. I want want want want to do well. And I just realised is that tomorrow, we're going to get our papers back. Oh Sh-oot. I don't don't want them back. Like not in a million years. Pleeease, I DONT WANT.:/
Now, we have to have to mug like crazy. Cause I'm so afraid that I'll screw up EOYs. And I really don't want that, do I?
DAMN. My table is a mess and my brain is synonymous. It is super confused now. Can you tell? Betcha can't. I will never tell Francesca anything anymore, because she confuses me more than sets my mind straight, thank you. I just want to sleep away every every thing. And sleep through the exams. Oh let everything be okay. Let love be everywhere. And my mind's going loco, greatttt. I need a confidanté who won't confuse me. I need to accept the facts. Acceptance, yeah right. Get a life Jaime, acceptance is a facade.
I am tired, and I have to go to school tomorrow. How is this rejuvenating? And as I've said before, one week of holidays is not enough. Take it away, let's go for it. Finish what we started, reach the end and collect a bunch of tears for regrets and fears. And then change the route. We're going to need apaptations. We're like animals, we adapt to survive. But those who don't, don't survive. I want to adapt well. I want to live it well. I want to be positive about this leap of faith. Is it so hard? Why I can't I trust the facts and the promises of all these big ideas? Why can't I? Its promising and it looks perfect, but there are always those little glitches at the little sides that you'll never see until you step in and aren't able to come out.
I want this Jaime, I want it. Go in, give it a shot and shut the hell up. Stop doubting. If you hate it, you just have to spread the love. Make it work. Its the things you make of your choices not the choices you make that make you the person you are. There is no victory without a risk. Take the risk, fall down and pick yourself up, feel that victory. Go on silly. You CAN do it. Now stop doubting. Have faith, have a great term and be positive. Treasure your moments and never look back. No regrets.(:
Let's go let's go. Take it away, forget yesterday. All the way, all the way. Just do it, don't look back, the future awaits.
"No regrets, no regrets?"jaime.(:
And have a great term ahead, loving everyone from the heart. :D
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Friday, September 07, 2007
♥ 11:22 PM
Jaime is finally panicking.WHAT IF.Now, I really don't know what I want. Is this the right path? Will there be love like no other?Like the way my friends are now?I really really don't know. I'm leaving my family of friends and feeding myself to a jungle. What will it be like?Guide my path, light my ways. Teach me, help me, be with me.I'm afraid. Very afraid. What if. I dare not think.But then again, you'd never know what the future lies. Since I've gotten this far, I'll stick with my choices, like I'll always do. I hope this is right, I hope this is true.I am happy. (:
"Its all you ever wanted, right?"jaime. just a little,
scared.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Thursday, September 06, 2007
♥ 8:32 PM
HELLO WORLD.
THANK YOU FOR TODAY PEOPLE.
It was wonderful wonderful wonderful.
I think, this is the one and only time that I'd get something as nice and close to as nice as this.
Its super sweet you know! And for all that time you all put in! I hope you really really enjoyed yourselves! THANK YOU x9999999999999999999999999!
So here are your indivdual dedications(:
STEPHANIE! Thanks for letting us crash at your house! It's the perfecto destination and it was great fun! Thank you for contacting everybody and everything. And for everytime you photocopied for me, and did science pract for me, and talked to me and took 163 and everything with me. For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
FRANCESCA! Thanks for updating me every every day on what was going on, and listening to my advice when it is not important, and listening to me go on and on and for being a friend and for organising my party! For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
HILLARYKOH!Thanks for planning the thing and doing everything for this! For not throwing knives and for putting up with all my nonsense over the don't know how long. You've beeen great, now stop attacking people! For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
ARIELLE!Thanks for going down so many times to help them! For organising this and for being in all(or most) of my groups over this year! Thanks for eating recess with me and talking nonsense with me! For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
SULIN! Thanks for coming! And being my class partner for the last year! Thank you for talking to me and listening to my 1001 different sets of nonsense! For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
YANGLIN&MAO! Thanks for coming! And for being such a wonderful classmate and ex-classmate! For the wonderful OM memories and the different things that have happened over the years!For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
JANE,DENISE&BEATRICE! Thanks for being in my group and for teaching me the 10001 card games and what not over the year!For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
QINYUE,MINYAN,MAXINE,JOVITA,HILLARYh.&CAROLINE! Thanks for coming though I don't really know you all all that well! Thanks for the memories and all the fun and joy you brought to our class!For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
MARRISSA,LISSA&CELESTE! Thank you SVDP people! You all are the best! Thank you for coming and for being my CL companions and all! For the bus rides and dinners before CL and all! For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
MICHELLE! Thank you for listening to my rubbish throughout the years, helping my solve my problems and going out with me the multiple times doing the strangest things!Thank you for coming today even though it may have been weird with all my classmates and all! Thanks!For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
FEL&DARYL! Thank you for my chocolates and sweets! For all the different times, sharing sessions, msn convos, smses and conversations. The stuff and the stuff! Thanks for coming today even though you all probably felt extremely out of place! Thanks! For everything! I LOVE YOU TO BITS! 谢谢!
And for everybody else who shared my present, made this possible or helped with something or other, I thank you and sincerely, love you to bits!(:
I feel loved and loved. Today, is a goood day. But, tomorrow will be better!
248 dollars to go, JIAYOU!(:
" I have the sweetest friends ever, I bet you are jealous now! "jaime, the luckiest girl alive. (:
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Monday, September 03, 2007
♥ 9:13 PM
I am freaking going to get a 27.9 handicap.And I am freaking going to be better than you.Because, you do not deserve to be better than me.And, I will not allow you to be.This is what you get, for being biased.For not treating people right.Fine, that was mean.
I take that back. NOT.Today we had a fun day.
27 holes, 3 rounds, 1 day.
Can you tell me how much fun that is?
Cheryll: That's the bird that attacked Shaun, OOH, I love you bird.,
This is what happens when idiots are shown in their true light.(:
They are hated and are condemned.
Well, serves you right, idiots.
It's not my fault, you're all so effing idiotic.:D
Jaime's just being very mean and annoyed at this point of time.
This is irrational annoyance, do not attempt to understand the root cause or whatever.
Because I am really tired now, and I can't wait to play more golf and run a super fast 5km tmr.
Hell yeah.
I AM GOING TO GET A TWENTY-SEVEN POINT NINE, MARK MY WORDS.
I will get a good handicap, thank you.
We will make Trent proud, and make all the golfers come to him.
Because we are goooood, and always shall be. Fullstop.
And now, Jaime just feels like taking her 7 iron, and whacking somebody's head really hard, so that the person can fall and die.
But Jaime shall not be mean, and she shall be nice.
And she will follow Ghandi's philosophy of non-violent protests.
And will not be violent or mean.
Cause mean people are savages.
Just like you, idiot.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
(yes I know, its mean to call people idiots and savages, but its less mean when compared to idiots who be idiots and are idiots, so, I consider myself considerably civilised.:D)
I am so not in the right mind today.(:
"just whack them and shout 'fore'!"jaime. MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, September 01, 2007
♥ 2:00 PM
Holidays are here!
Its supposed to be regarded as a study break.
Yeah, right.
If it were a 2 week break, maybe.
But one week is just too short.
Teachers enjoy killing us.
And we still celebrate teachers' day for them.
Pfft, yeah thanks.
Aaanyway.
Yesterday, I went to watch ratatouille with denise,caroline, jane and hillary.
It was gooood.
I watched denise play audition and then I went for CL.
Jaime was thinking of being a nice half blind kid.
But apparently, things don't happen the way you expect them to be.
So I had to be a kid who could see. Dangg!
Anyways, I was online till one, thinking about how horribly some people I know are and how I felt like throttling them. And then I became oddly un-jaime-like and I talked nonsense again and then went offline.
Today, a year ago, was the best day ever. First September. Hell yeah. We had so much fun, and we forged friendships and we were just having the time of our lives. Let's have fun everyday!(:
And now, I don't feel so happy. :/
Hope's a funny thing, it makes you so happy and yet kills you inside, slowly, one part at a time.
I should stop having hope, no matter what.
Optimism, without hope?
Like a no strings attach scholarship?
I don't think so. I really don't think so.
Why is it that you can get everything I want, and my consolation is getting dimmer and dimmer? Maybe what they say is true, the grass is always greener on the other side. And maybe it is, but this side is green and that's enough. But its so hard to keep thinking that. Why does it eat me inside! Yeah, its right there in my face. But what is it. Why don't I get it. Why
can't I get it? More chances, I say. Then, better reputation. Then, niceness. Then, I give up. And then it just never goes away. Something is wrong with me. I am wrong. Thanks. You make me feel sick without even doing anything, but yet it makes me feel so deprived. THANK YOU.
OKAY. enough ranting. (:
I'm gonna get some coolio penpals.
Cooler than sugarfree sugarful idiots.
Jaime does not hate anyone, Jaime does not hate anyone.
I need to stuff that into my thick head thanks.
"scars make us stronger for life."jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?