Sunday, December 30, 2007
♥ 7:33 PM
Its 30th Dec!
Which means, school starts soon!
Which is good/bad.
Next year, we people go to VJC, for IP.
Yuppp. Cool stuff.
Okay, this is my first time announcing, offcially, i think.
Yupp. And we the united and bonded people of 08v13 belong to a great great class.
Yeah enthu class, let's go let's go!
I'm excited to get to know all of 'em better and have a nice AIR-CONNED classroom:D
Ahaa, just that we'll all be probably busy like nobody's business and be really tired.
Butttttttttttt, I don't mind. I guess.
Our super bonded class wants a super de duper cool class shirt.
And Yeah, haha, good stuff.
Bones & hurricanes!
Sure, we're weird.
Anyhows, its a new start which means a new beginning.
Which means all the more happy energy again!
YAY! And you're not gonna get me down, NO!
Sooooo, yeah that.
Its gonna be a long day tmrw, and also a HAPPY day tmrw!
And yeah. YEAHHHHHHHHHHH.
Its gonna be a heck of an exciting year!
So, lists of things to do:D
One. Be a happy happy girl.
Two. Train hard, play hard and study hard!
Three. Be a gooood friend to EVERYONE(even the mean and horrible ones)
Four. Be responsible and helpful.
Five. Love your neighbour. (As in family and friends [ AKA, EVERYONE])
Six. Not break anybody's heart. (Not like I'm gonna get the chance to, but its something that I NEVER wanna do, so there)
Seven. Be a good sister and a better daughter.
Eight. Save money!
Nine. Be prayerful and live a more christian life!
Ten. Don't neglect anything.
Eleven. Be organised and rested.
Twelve. PRIORITISE!
Thirteen. Don't regret and look back at the past.
Fourteen. Praise God always!
Fifteen. Do everything above and always be my best!
With all my might, I'll try. Here on of, to be whatever's stated above.
And if you're not planning to do any of the above, go check your conscious out, before you start hurting people!
Anyhows, in case I don't come back here for the rest of the year...
Have a GOOOOD NEW YEAR and an even BETTTER BELATED CHRISTMAS!oh and I bet I forgot.
08v13 boulders!good job, friends!:Dlots of love!
"Everything new, a clean new record"jaime.
<3 08v13!
OH AND
<3 2/1 '07 too! I'll never forget us!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, December 29, 2007
♥ 12:24 AM
This is the end.
Its what I wanted.
For you to be happy, for everyone to be happy.
And so, its here and its done.
Now, its time to move on.
No regrets, no grudges.
Time to let go and time to smile.
Everything's over. GONE!:D
It starts anew.
You're free, and I'm free.
Freewill.
Thank you Lord.
but more importantly,
08v13 rocks!gosh, i'm so enthu!
"i'm not a victim"jaime.
liberated:D
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
♥ 10:47 PM
MERRY CHRISTMAS!Its Christmas, so I should
really stop being violent and hate-ful.
And I should stop feeling argh.
OKAY, HAPPY HAPPY:D:D
Its a typical Christmas, where you spend time with kids half your age who are so young and happy and
innocent. And HAPPY. Happy.:D
Its fun, seeing them run around and thinking that time doesn't end.
And all those adults secretly tracking your growth in their minds.
Laughing and talking, just catching up.
And getting presents!Christmas is the best time of year!
This year's prechristmas stuff was ULTRAFUN:D
Caroling's been greatttttt!
Maybe not as great as last year, but good enough!
Shopping, training and counting down's been fun!
Tessa's party, midnight mass and dressing up too!
All so cooooooool! I'm growing up and I know it.
But there's something there that's not right.
Its, sad. I know. But ah, we get over it!
whatever whatever whatever.
I'm just a plain
jane jaime, who's gonna smile at everything.:D
LALALALALALALALALALALA.
nehnehnehnehnehnehnehneh!
I want my time machine so bad, i'd die for it.
Or throw my christmas presents(not my phone)
out of the window.OKAY JAIME MARIA TAN!
You're stronger than this!
If you can run 12km time trial you can do anything.
You're not freaking gonna be an ass and wait
8months and deprive others of happiness.
Stop being a selfish brat!
Now! Its Christmas, give
freely.Let it go, let it beDon't waste all your emotion on thistit-for-tat machineLet it go, let it beLet it go-let it go, corrinne may
you're a machine, and you're really not worth the time.so once more,
MERRY CHRISTMAS, MERRY CHRISTMAS!"Have yourself a merry little christmas!"jaime!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Thursday, December 20, 2007
♥ 4:47 PM
Okay, I haven't blogged in ages.
But I just haven't been feeling in the mood.
And I still don't, but oh wells.
Yupp yupp.
So many things have happened since the last time i blogged.
Its tiring to watch.
Everyday's the same, and as soon as I got the message, I stopped waiting.
Waiting kills, it sucks the life out of you. It wastes your time.
I'm not going to wait 8 months and go become a cuckoo ding dong.
But its hard to just let it go, just like that.
I'll give myself time. Time's the universal cure, I guess.
Train train train train. I didn't train today!
Caroling yesterday. It was fun!
I love love love love love love aunty phyllis' house!
But caroling just makes me feel like time just flew by.
And it just passed me by.
Oh wells, I'm gonna make it big and have a house like Aunty Phyllis', someday.
Everything just feels strange now.
I don't feel myself.
I don't feel the same inside.
Its just this strange outer me.
I'm talking to myself even more often.
At least I gave up waiting.
That's one good thing.
I want to turn back time, make sure I didn't make that mistake.
I don't want to know you anymore.
I don't want to see you anymore.
It just confuses me. It mixes up my decisions.
And my emotions, mind you.
I'm supposed to act like nothing's happened.
And I'm supposed to know that nothing's ever going to happen.
Its real hard. With so much hope, and so much thought.
You're going away.
I'm happy.
I'll have a break from seeing you there everyday.
And I don't have to pretend smile anymore.
You ask me if I'm alright.
Yeah, sure I am.How am I supposed to tell you, you're killing me inside?
I can't and won't. So I'll just,
lie.Smile and laugh, and just hide everything.
Fatigue, fear and hurt; Sweep it under the carpet.
Just no more peace. I need my peace, thank you.
You won't see this, its good. At least I can say everything somewhere.
Okay, so this doesn't make any logical sense.
But I'm feeling like I need to say something somewhere.
I'm gonna finish packing my terribly ugly(especially now, at this point of time) rooom.
lalalalalalala.
We all need a little patience, but we don't have all that endurance.
And sometimes waiting isn't what you should be doing.
Soooooooooooo, its time to hand those hopes in.
And give it up, cause its time to start anew.
Hello fresh new world!
Oh x'mas is coming!
I want a time machine, just a chance that maybe we'll find better days and aunty phyllis' house!
Think you can manage that?:D
"i'm learning to breathe on my own"jaime.
Lalalalalalalalalala!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Thursday, December 06, 2007
♥ 6:56 PM
okay! life's been okay dokay.
yuppp. caroling, training, sleeping.
there's a routine to my day.
training sleeping caroling
or just training and sleeping.
but i'm not complaining.
at least you do something.
so we're supposed to not go anywhereand stay where we are,
crushing crushing and finally crushed.its only a schoolgirl crush after all.
but that's what i wanted at the start.and what i think i still want now...but there's still something missing.but i think there's no waiting for it.i'll persevere until there's nothing leftbut everybody has their limits,even cross country runners.
i'll tell you what i really want, if only you'd ask.
freewill, i'll give you that.its how the world shapes you to be people we don't want to be.
its how God gives you freewill to do what you like because he loves us too much.
its how you choose to fall prey to heartbreaks and heartaches.
its how you choose to react to every single thing that happens to you.
its how you want to become someone just because you think its what you want.
its how you want something to happen so bad, that you know your hope is lost.
and its how you wake up everyday and know that everything's new and something's extraordinary's waiting to happen, if only it would.
okay, i'm random.
i've done my christmas list more or less.
at the end of the day, i'll be here smiling.
i want to be there to comfort you and be a friend for you.
but you won't let me. you'll choose her over me, won't you?lalala. this is really weird.
pack~!
"and your dreams give you away"jaime.
and everything's your choiceits just what you choose, and what you do after that.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, December 01, 2007
♥ 11:47 PM
You're dead, and I'm letting go.
We're going nowhere, and I'm getting used to it.
I prefer the innocence, the ignorance.
Where we just dream and pretend to be things.
I like that, I really do.
But its okay, less stress less white hair.
Let nature take its course.
Flow down the rivers and let it reach the ocean.
When the time is right, I'll be waiting in my red gown.
Holding my white rose.i'm a happy kid!
yes celeste, we've to stop cheap thrilling.
but for now, its the closest thing we have to assurance.
whoosh! let's all go dream of pretty things tonight.
Like dramatic endings and soft sweet beginnings.
I've given up on staying sad, cause it just knaws us away part by part.
"she had too much on her mind"jaime.
i really love you, do you know that?
&when will you take me away on a balloon?