Friday, August 24, 2007
♥ 11:15 PM
GOODBYE ADMIN, HELLO FANTASTIC PA!Yaaaaay! Jaime is happy. No wait, Jaime is beyond happy, she's elated.
I loooooooveeeeeee Performing Arts! :D!
Thaaank Youuu people who decided that, thank youu exco!
Oh by the way, the re-organisation is the cool!
WE SINCERELY PROMISE TO DO OUR BEST. (:
Francesca is planning something. I am scared.
Seriouslyyy. But maybe, just maybe, Francesca will be nice.
Jaime has decided to be nice.
No introductions and no toothpaste ideas, for now.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE CL PLEASE!
:D:D:D:D:D Oh wait, its ÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖ!
Righteousss!(:
Stupid Chinese high rioters, stupid textbooks.
I'm going crazy, and extremely tired.
Gooood night sexiess!:D
'For with God, nothing will be impossible.'jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, August 18, 2007
♥ 2:51 PM
I finally did my 'I will' list for my mum was demanding from me.
Actually, its the list of things I will do because I'm going to
yes, if you haven't known VIP.
And its more for myself than anyone/anything, so that I'll stay on course.
And I did a list of 20 things, cause its a nice round number.
The hardest 2 things would probably be:
#9 I will be responsible; and
#20 I will do my best.
#9 I will be responsibleHello world, I am Jaime the most forgetful being on the face of the Earth who is not detailed enough and misses out the most important details, who is damn suay and has been performing up to standard. This is me. The irresponsible one. Me. Commitment, yes. Enthusiasm, sometime. Effort, maybe. Responsibility, absent. ZERO. And promising to myself to be responsible is going to be really hard. But yeah, effort. Therefore, I will
TRY to be more responsible.
#20 I will do my best This is especially hard when hard when you're at the 200m mark with 600m more of your say 2000m schedule and you feel like giving up, and you don't want to give your 100 percent, because you're too tired. Or when you need to study, but then you really don't
feel like it. And when your homework comes tumbling down and you just have this urge to randomly write answers in, in your worse possible handwriting. Yeah. Like that. How do you live up to what you say about yourself, about how you always give 'your best'? Tell me how. I really want to do my best, but then, there's so many occasions where you have to choose, and you choose not to. And then, you would have failed. FAILED, failed. FAILURE. And then there's this part about not knowing what's your best. And how its the effort that counts and how you just console yourself cause of laziness. So yes. But I want to do my best, and I want to do
the best. Therefore, I
will do my best.
AND NOW. My feet are freezing and my books are waiting by my table. And, my mind is going on and on and on. And now, I have a choice to make, to do my best, or to slack off in front of my tempting computer. What do you think I will choose?(:
"I've been delusioned from the start."jaime.
(no I'm not deep. I'm simply looking at my incredulous list)
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
♥ 10:46 PM
I'm
such a silly girl.
And I ought to be killed cause I did the
stupidest and most
confusing thing in the book of jaime.
Why don't I know better?
"Ancestor! You're olddddd!"jaime. í feel stupid, thanks.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Sunday, August 12, 2007
♥ 1:27 PM
I can't exactly say what I intend to say anymore.
Like everything I want to say is a sensitive topic or that it'll make me seem like something I'm not. So, I can't really say anything.And everything seems to be changing. And everything's changing in the reverse. In the opposite of what it used to be. Sure, I wanted it all. But, now. Its just different. But everything will change, its just a matter of time.
Fullstop. Enough. The more I dwell, the more it scares me. The more I dwell, the more I am distanced from what I'm desperately trying to treasure now. Enough. FULLSTOP.
I shall be more disciplined. I shall be more driven. This part of me that I always wanted to be, is still yet to be. Sadly. But, I'll work on it. Or at least I'll try. Rahh! JAIME, GET A GRIP OF YOURSELF! So, let's just try and work with the time we have left, yeah?
SOON it'll all be over, them books and studies. SOON it'll all be over, them days of dreaming. SOON it'll all get started, them days of stress and reminiscing. RIGHT.
OH. And Arielle's coming for SHINE JESUS SHINE! I gotta practice my lines! TAHAA.:DD!
Every thing happens at all the wrong times. When you want something, it never goes. And when you stop wanting it, it comes to you with open arms. Murphy's law? Why can't we stay long enough to receive what we want? Things things things. Life life life. Nothing ever seems to go the way you want it to. But lessons learnt! We grow wiser. We become more intelligent. We do less stupid things. Less stupid things, more justified things. YESYES. More justified.
"You are the dreamer, and we are the dream."jaime.
I was blinded. Blinded by your grandeur.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Friday, August 10, 2007
♥ 5:40 PM
I studied a little today!
I feel accomplished!(:
Anyways. I feel very very very very very very very very very excited about 2ndNOV and everything. But I'm super super super scared also. I'm so afraid that it's been the wrong choice all along and that I won't enjoy it as much. I'm so afraid that what I'm seeing now, is what I'll feel next year. And I'm so afraid that it'll be worse than last year. But its your attitude that defines your altitude and destiny. So I'm going to keep brainwashing myself(even if it isn't all that effective) and I'm going to keep being positive. Like during all the numerous competitions, when all the longDs had our positive attitude. :D!
I'm hoping that I'll still feel God and still bring him into my life everyday to be a motivation to go on and see him guide me and help me through life's trials and tribulations. I'm so worried that everything will change and that I won't even see him in life anymore. I'm hoping that life won't be meaningless then. Because I don't think I would feel like I'd have made the right choice. And I hope, that I won't feel sick and tired of doing whatever I do everyday. And I pray with all my heart that I don't go to school everyday just to heal the wounds that some people have made on others because of me. After so long, I still wonder. Yes, take a leap of faith. Take the risk. Know what you're missing out. Or, see your mistake and your shortcomings. Its brave and dangerous and to certain extends stupid. But this is all I wanted right? Isn't it? I'm not sure anymore. But I know that since I've come this far and so much has happened. I'm winging it. Sticking with it till the end. My choice, I'll pay the consequences. I know God won't do it for me all the time. We're here to learn. I'm still afraid. But I'll do my best. And I'll live my life well.
All for you Lord, All for you. I'll do my best.Everything for your glory, everything for your praise.Let me be what I'm meant to be and let it be the right path I choose. Let me live my life for you, Lord. Let me be what you stand for. Your will, and not mine be done. Use me, Lord. "take it from my hands, cause I can't do this on my own"jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Monday, August 06, 2007
♥ 6:31 PM
WISHLIST!
Yes, a little early. But, hey, I had a free period of geog yet again. WHAT WAS I TO DO!
1)World Peace!
2)No homework!
3)για να είναι στην εκτελεστική επιτροπή λειτουργίας των παιδιών, I mean, to fry more
head prefects plasticine figures!
4)For it to snow in Singapore!
5)INFINITE SUPPLY OF FROSTIES, or ownership of Nestle!
6)To go for a Corrinne May Concert real soooon!
7)CRUMPLERR!(western lawn/hoax!)
8)A nice black flippity flip wallet!
9)Water bottlee!
10)10 A1s!(Do I even take 10 subjects?)
11)
FLY AWAY CD!I think its supposed to be my christmas present.
12)Sneakers!(Which I think my mum will buy for me.:D)
13)Deuter Green School Bag!(Which I will demand from my parents if I don't get it. HAA)
14)Greeeeen golf tees!
15) Greeeen golf balls!(Yes, I won't be able to see it on the course.)
16)RED/GREEN IPOD NANO!
17) JAIME DAY SCHOOL/PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
18)CPR Manual! (I find it extremely hilarious!)
19)Pencil Case!
20)Stationery!(Markers{no hillary hoo, not MARCUS, but MARKERS}, Pens, Notebooks, Files, Pencils, Erasers,MUJI PENS!, etc.)
21)TAJ MAHAL!
22)Find a RICHRICH guy for ELIZABETHTANSULIN!
23)Red Cross Uniform!
24)Present from randompersonx!
25)Surprise Birthday Party!
26)Play Truth or Dare! (Yes, I have ulterior motives for the 'TRUTH' part)
27)New Books to read!
28)Fly First Class on SQ!
29)Find someone to go home with from school next year who isn't a wall or anything half as close to it.
Yes, and you must agree that I have to update it soon, cause nothing makes sense. Apart from the few very very expensive things. Yesss! HAHA.
3weeks+3days till end of CAs!JIAYOU!
I AM NICE! FINALISTS ARE GOOD ENOUGH. AS LONG AS YOU TRY!(:
"All you need is my 'Amen'."jaime.
mingnian,woyaozhuoipteamdecaptain.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Sunday, August 05, 2007
♥ 4:47 PM
i'm leaving, don't try to change my mind. -corrinne may, leaving.That was so apt.
And cat class too.
Aunty Michelle said, 'Would you take the risk, or stand there and watch'
Okay, sure. It wasn't referring to what I was thinking about.
But I'm still thinking if its the right choice. And when she said that it just hit me.
I've watched for long enough, its my turn now.
And then I hurt leaving.
Course the song's not about what I'm thinking about either.
Its about sin. But yeah. It hits me.
I'm made the choice. I'm sticking to it.
I'll miss you all. Seniors, Juniors, Friends.
Suree. But, there's the internet.
Suree, it won't be the same.
But what makes you think it will ever be the same?
I'm not going to think about it anymore.
Its the right choice.
I don't care if it means that I'd be exasperated everyday.
It means that I'll be there, doing what I want to do.
Fulfilling my dreams. Pursuing happiness.
Its a free country ain't it?
Corrinne May's new album is the best.
Seriously. Too bad rest of the world, yours will come on 8th September.:P
Thank You Stephanie and Daryl!(:
WITHOUT THE CD I WOULD HAVE DIED. YOU UNDERSTAND ME WHEN I SAY,
DIEEE?
Imagine if I had to wait the one month. I could barely have waited the 1.5hours y'know!
Thanks Janet for being such a great junior!(:
Thanks for making my day.
OHOH, and. HAHA. Thanks Daryl for the AHEM insight on childhood.
HAHAAAAAAAA. If you're meant to know what it means, you will, rest of the world.
YAAAAY! I'm happy. I AM A HAPPY KID!(:
"Call my name, let me be an answer."jaime. PLEEEAASEE.
wo yi jing fang qi le. zhen de fang qi le.i've given up, it exasperates me too much.if it was meant to be, then it would have been...
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Saturday, August 04, 2007
♥ 12:09 AM
RAHH.FRIDAY!
I thank courtney gordon for being such a spasticated dyslexic retard. THANK YOU CHARLIE!
Today was the party thing. I MISSED OUT ON MY CONCERT. Can you see the disappointment?
LOCAL TALENT SHOULD BE SUPPORTED LAHHH!
Haha, anywayss.
YES. Today. The ordinary.
Lit test was alright I guess, no stress.
Free periods for geog. I need to do something soon.
History. Riots. Stupid people, violence is never the way to go!
PFFFFTTT. Anyways.
I hate it when I seem to be working for a worthless cause.
How could Claude McKay ask the African Americans to fight a losing battle?
Sure, there's a meagre bit of hope.
But, its ever so demoralising.
If one party is not agreeable, you'll never get what you want
You'll never get what you want.
Why can't I just give up. Why?
Yes, I have. But that ray of hope. Oh, that ray of hope.
Oh block it out, put it in the dark. Take away that reflecting mirror.
I don't need these false hope anymore. I don't need to see those images.Oh shut up. Just shut up. I need my peace and quiet. I need my rest.
Let it rest. Let the right thing come. Let it all be right.
OKAY. ENOUGH.
I AM A HAPPY KID. I AM A HAPPY KID. I AM A HAPPY KID.
Obviously,my brainwashing, according Mrs Clean Colour doesn't work. Pfft.
"why do I keep counting"jaime. I AM SO JEALOUS OF STEPHANIELEONGWANYI.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
Thursday, August 02, 2007
♥ 4:43 PM
Its thursday, and its after school!
Which means, one more set of lessons before we can go and rest and relax!
JOYYYY! I so absolutely love Fridays. Fridays are the time when you become happy. Really happy. Fridays are the love. <333!
I
will do my homework today. I
will get graphs. I
will study. I
will. I'm so excited! Tomorrow, I'll slack. So, now I must work hardd. Ahh. Graphs kill. Physics practical's torture. I can never get the practs even vaguely correct! I'll have to redo it like one million gazillion thousand billion times lah. And we only have
forty-five minutes to do
three absolutely positively correct and mark giving practicals. AND, my physics concepts are not all that clear. Oh, someone save mee,
pleasee. I will not flunk any of the papers. I'm going to try to
ACE them. Terribly difficult, I reckon. I WILL STRIVEE.
Alright. This is getting in the way of my, let's be hardworking and do lots of work time. Ciao!
"That's what you get when you let your heart win."jaime. FRIDAYY!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?