Thursday, December 06, 2007
♥ 6:56 PM
okay! life's been okay dokay.
yuppp. caroling, training, sleeping.
there's a routine to my day.
training sleeping caroling
or just training and sleeping.
but i'm not complaining.
at least you do something.
so we're supposed to not go anywhereand stay where we are,
crushing crushing and finally crushed.its only a schoolgirl crush after all.
but that's what i wanted at the start.and what i think i still want now...but there's still something missing.but i think there's no waiting for it.i'll persevere until there's nothing leftbut everybody has their limits,even cross country runners.
i'll tell you what i really want, if only you'd ask.
freewill, i'll give you that.its how the world shapes you to be people we don't want to be.
its how God gives you freewill to do what you like because he loves us too much.
its how you choose to fall prey to heartbreaks and heartaches.
its how you choose to react to every single thing that happens to you.
its how you want to become someone just because you think its what you want.
its how you want something to happen so bad, that you know your hope is lost.
and its how you wake up everyday and know that everything's new and something's extraordinary's waiting to happen, if only it would.
okay, i'm random.
i've done my christmas list more or less.
at the end of the day, i'll be here smiling.
i want to be there to comfort you and be a friend for you.
but you won't let me. you'll choose her over me, won't you?lalala. this is really weird.
pack~!
"and your dreams give you away"jaime.
and everything's your choiceits just what you choose, and what you do after that.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
