Friday, October 26, 2007
♥ 12:58 AM
This is it.The day I wanted so much a year ago.
The day I so dreaded a month ago.
And the day I don't know what to feel about now.
Apprenhension, ambivalence?
I'm going to make it right.
Everything I wanted and everything I stand to be.
Its been made. The choice, my future, my life.
All by God.
This is it. The day has come.
The dawn is coming.
Time to get some rest, to see what this day is bringing.
Don't let me cry, don't let me cry.
I'm going to miss you so.
After every single day and second I've thought about being an IJ girl.
Picturing myself in this uniform.
This is it.
Its too soon. It doesn't feel right.
But nothing feels the way its supposed to feel anymore.
I pray for strength, that I may bear this in my stride.
For hope, that I'll keep hoping that this is good.
For courage, that I'll be able to take the plunge.
And for serenity, that peace may take over, no matter what I feel.
A peace within that nothing can replace.
This is like a dream.
Love, school and futures.
None of this appears real.
Oh please let me wake up tomorrow and realise its all a dream
.Its too good for me, its too good to believe.
Its too surreal, it feels other-worldly.
I trust you Lord, let this be right.
Guide me guardian angel.
Mother Mary, pray for me.
Jesus be at my side.
This is a dream I want to have with everything except regret.
I never want to take a 2nd look at it. Ever again.
"thank you."jaime.
I'm just really confused now. And I just really want it all to work out. I don't know if this is right. And flipping coins won't do anything.Regret, you make this so hard to bear. Sentimentality, you're killing my joy.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
