Saturday, September 01, 2007
♥ 2:00 PM
Holidays are here!
Its supposed to be regarded as a study break.
Yeah, right.
If it were a 2 week break, maybe.
But one week is just too short.
Teachers enjoy killing us.
And we still celebrate teachers' day for them.
Pfft, yeah thanks.
Aaanyway.
Yesterday, I went to watch ratatouille with denise,caroline, jane and hillary.
It was gooood.
I watched denise play audition and then I went for CL.
Jaime was thinking of being a nice half blind kid.
But apparently, things don't happen the way you expect them to be.
So I had to be a kid who could see. Dangg!
Anyways, I was online till one, thinking about how horribly some people I know are and how I felt like throttling them. And then I became oddly un-jaime-like and I talked nonsense again and then went offline.
Today, a year ago, was the best day ever. First September. Hell yeah. We had so much fun, and we forged friendships and we were just having the time of our lives. Let's have fun everyday!(:
And now, I don't feel so happy. :/
Hope's a funny thing, it makes you so happy and yet kills you inside, slowly, one part at a time.
I should stop having hope, no matter what.
Optimism, without hope?
Like a no strings attach scholarship?
I don't think so. I really don't think so.
Why is it that you can get everything I want, and my consolation is getting dimmer and dimmer? Maybe what they say is true, the grass is always greener on the other side. And maybe it is, but this side is green and that's enough. But its so hard to keep thinking that. Why does it eat me inside! Yeah, its right there in my face. But what is it. Why don't I get it. Why
can't I get it? More chances, I say. Then, better reputation. Then, niceness. Then, I give up. And then it just never goes away. Something is wrong with me. I am wrong. Thanks. You make me feel sick without even doing anything, but yet it makes me feel so deprived. THANK YOU.
OKAY. enough ranting. (:
I'm gonna get some coolio penpals.
Cooler than sugarfree sugarful idiots.
Jaime does not hate anyone, Jaime does not hate anyone.
I need to stuff that into my thick head thanks.
"scars make us stronger for life."jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
