Saturday, August 18, 2007
♥ 2:51 PM
I finally did my 'I will' list for my mum was demanding from me.
Actually, its the list of things I will do because I'm going to
yes, if you haven't known VIP.
And its more for myself than anyone/anything, so that I'll stay on course.
And I did a list of 20 things, cause its a nice round number.
The hardest 2 things would probably be:
#9 I will be responsible; and
#20 I will do my best.
#9 I will be responsibleHello world, I am Jaime the most forgetful being on the face of the Earth who is not detailed enough and misses out the most important details, who is damn suay and has been performing up to standard. This is me. The irresponsible one. Me. Commitment, yes. Enthusiasm, sometime. Effort, maybe. Responsibility, absent. ZERO. And promising to myself to be responsible is going to be really hard. But yeah, effort. Therefore, I will
TRY to be more responsible.
#20 I will do my best This is especially hard when hard when you're at the 200m mark with 600m more of your say 2000m schedule and you feel like giving up, and you don't want to give your 100 percent, because you're too tired. Or when you need to study, but then you really don't
feel like it. And when your homework comes tumbling down and you just have this urge to randomly write answers in, in your worse possible handwriting. Yeah. Like that. How do you live up to what you say about yourself, about how you always give 'your best'? Tell me how. I really want to do my best, but then, there's so many occasions where you have to choose, and you choose not to. And then, you would have failed. FAILED, failed. FAILURE. And then there's this part about not knowing what's your best. And how its the effort that counts and how you just console yourself cause of laziness. So yes. But I want to do my best, and I want to do
the best. Therefore, I
will do my best.
AND NOW. My feet are freezing and my books are waiting by my table. And, my mind is going on and on and on. And now, I have a choice to make, to do my best, or to slack off in front of my tempting computer. What do you think I will choose?(:
"I've been delusioned from the start."jaime.
(no I'm not deep. I'm simply looking at my incredulous list)
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
