Monday, July 23, 2007
♥ 8:00 PM
REACTIONS.
Why's the reaction like that?
I'm apprehensive myself, no doubt.
But I've been given this chance, and I've wanted it so much.
I'm not throwing it away because of fear and because of distance.
I won't. I won't. Its gone through in my head a gazillion times.
I want this so badly, can't you understand.
From the day that we started making up this plan.
I wanted it so much. We wanted it so much. We really wanted to make this work.
Did you think I trained so hard for nothing? Did you think I went to find out so many things just to socialise? No. I wanted it. I wanted something new.
At first, it was to get out of the problems that tumbled down. Then it was a challenge, and then it was just something that I wanted. No words could explain.
I prayed so hard. Did you think it was for fun?
Some things just don't go the way I want them to, but I'll stick to it.
I don't care if you don't approve of my going.
I've wanted this for too long. And I am not giving up. Even if I have to live like this for the next 3 months. Avoiding people. Avoiding tantrums. I've been given this chance, and I believe its from God. I'll take it, and make the best out of it. Now its your turn to decide. To accept my choice, or to be angry at me for getting the chance to choose. Your choice. You could spend the next 3 months with me, happily. Creating happy memories for us all to treasure. Or just spoil it, so that you won't remember me at all. YOUR CHOICE, not mine.
"Cause I don't think that they'd understand."jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
