Thursday, June 28, 2007
♥ 9:34 PM
Today, I'm happy.
I'm happy cause I apologised, yet again.
I'm happy cause I made other people happy.
And I'm happy cause I found self-worth.
Today, I went high, and was probably back to myself.
Today, I feel more mature and confident.
Today, I feel more like the person I want to be.
My dreams are going to crush me soon, but there's a soothing effect.
Recently, I've learnt that when I offer things up to God, He'll always help me.
Its such a sacrifice to give it up, and accept whatever he gives us, but you've just gotta trust.
Sometimes, both ways it'll suck. But God will pull you through. He won't do anything that'll hurt you too much. He's our father, he loves us, and we know that.
I'm apprehensive about all the things that'll come. I pray that I'll get what I want. But I know somewhere deep down that I've just got to let it go. Cause God knows what's best.
Its hard to accept it, but we need to try. And I'm trying. But its hard to give up something you want so much. So very much. Something so dear to your heart. But our purposes on earth is to satisfy God's purpose for us, not our own purpose. I really need to keep that in mind.
I'm still happy despite all this. I feel so much more like the person I want to be.
No doubt, this week has been mountainous. But I feel so much better now!
I'd like to thank my friends for everything. Consoling, helping, explaining.
Wonderful people.
Choices. Choices. I guess its not what you do with them, but how you cope with them. And how you live through them and what you've learnt. Sometimes you're at a losing end, and both ways are just as gloomy. But, you know, sometimes its not important what you choose. Sacrifices will have to be made ultimately. Its just a matter of time. If something is meant for you, it'll come to you no matter how hard. Just believe. In God, in yourself and in your choices. It'll all be fine. Happiness helps. Stay happy, pray and believe.
Over the recent few days/weeks, I realised the power of prayer. Sometimes, you pray and don't realise what's working, and then you just forget about it. But then after that, you see consequences. Things don't happen the way they usually do. And you see the power of prayer. While it is saddening to know that you've put someone through hardships by forgetting, its heartening to know that God's listening to you. Prayer, its so important in our lives, but sometimes, we just neglect its importance and forget about it. Prayer makes us stronger. Prayer makes us understand. Prayer is God's way of asking us to humble ourselves. I'm thankful for being a Catholic. I'm thankful for being put in IJTP. But I believe that even if I do get what I want, I'll do my best to still think of God's presence. And spread the love of God. I'll do my best.
This post is rather random, but quite happy. I'm happy. I'm still not good at sympathsising with people. But, I'll do what I can. I'm gonna save the world and make everyone happy. I've proven myself right. I've made people happy, I've made them feel loved. I've influenced people to make others feel happy. No doubt, I'm not going to be a nun, but I'm still going to save the world! I'm such a dreamer, such the escapist!
I've seen my mistakes in the mistakes of others. Which helps me learn. I feel flawed still. But we're all humans! I'm going all out for nationals. I know its terrible training until you feel bored of training. But Opportunity implies obligation, Success at the expense of sacrifice. WE CAN, WE WILL!(: GO IJTP. We'll go all the way!
Thanks Lord for everything. My friends, the experiences, and my family. I'll love you forever and always.
"feel like a little girl, trying to conquer the whole wide world."jaime. i'm gonna save the world!
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
