Tuesday, April 03, 2007
♥ 10:22 PM
i don't know.
the om thing.
they're all angry.
i am kinda sad and kinda "i don't care"
i pity clara so much.
all that work she put in.
i mean... ALL that work.
its like doing all the passion play props twice, on her own.
that's pretty much all.
i don't really think it was an unfair choice, because as much as mrs yap doesn't know what's going on with the other group, neither do we. so i can't judge if we've put in more work. i agree, our props do look really professional and look really good. but that's one part. and yeah. maybe God put this in our way, so that we could learn from it, and grow from it.
everything in its time. God puts everything in the right place at the right time, we just don't realise.we've just got to get
over it and
let it go. yeah.i seem to realise that God has a purpose for it. or at least i think. for me at least. but i can't help feeling that it is really very selfish. but God is not selfish. Maybe it IS better for everyone, i shall not dwell on the injustice, because, i've emphaised it so many times, and nothing is done, therefore, i have come to accept the fact that justice is absent. oh wells.AIYAH. As much as i try to accept the fact that we're not in and its put there for a reason. i can't help but feel what i felt at the beginning of the year, all over again. which is probably why i was feeling so listless and depressed. i felt like i had lost twice. TWICE. to the same people. twice. imagine that. it feels sucky. and the examined life thing i wrote came back to me. and i was thinking. you examine your life to see the mistakes so that you can make right. but i haven't. aye. but i shall get over it. brooding over things is not counted as examining your life. so OVER.
"she gave her best, but you said it wasn't enough"jaime.limitless.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
