Sunday, April 15, 2007
♥ 6:33 PM
aye.
didn't reach my mummy's target.
but I'm satisfied. partly.
that idiotic sec one is so bloody arrogant. that one. she is good, no doubt, but she is soo show-off.thus, i shall vow to beat her for nationals. as in track nationals, cause for XC nationals, its a little too late to think of it. but anyway.
'having hope is not giving
up till the last whistle blows' or as i would edit it
'having hope is not giving up until I pass the finishing line' that would mean I probably would have to emerge like top 3? oh gosh. what am i putting myself up to? D.R.E.A.M jaime, dream.
and then i'm thinking of my cl camp. its going to be, broken up. IF i get it. so it'll be me leaving so often. not really nice. how nice if everything was WHEN instead of IF. but sacrifices must be made to achieve your goals. that's a sad fact. but this has to happen since i'm such a dreamer and a tracker.I WILL ACHIEVE, MUAHAHAHAHA. NOBODY SHALL STOP ME! NOT EVEN MYSELF!
OM. was fine. i hoped we would get top 10. and we did. my group members were sad, cause they were aiming to get something. but you see, jaime has a very pessimistic sort of psychology, so yeah. my dad says its kiasu. but i hate feeling disappointed, so aim low. but for cross, i will aim high. because i don't want to drop too low. cross is my only chance to prove myself now. and I need it. all that trainings, and times. all that energy and aches. It is my time to shine.
"all the track's a stage and all the rest are mere props" -concept art. I need to whack cross. I NEED to, it's not a matter of WANT anymore. I need to prove it to them, but most importantly myself. i'm losing faith in the things I can do, because I feel like i'm deproving. I need to show this to myself. but as we said, if you believe in yourself, then only can you achieve. I NEED TO
BELIEVE, DAMMIT. three. it only takes three now. three is all is left. in three, it'll be alright. i'll believe, and i'll achieve. I'll have
faith in my potential,
hope for the best, and
love for what i am to do. I WILL.
PA was a disaster. I would have asked them to be more enthu, but my throat was dying. and i've had wayy too much acting this week. OM, OM and more OM. I kinda let myself down. Cause i thought that i could make magic. I gave up, I didn't persevere. I need to persevere. In all I do. I seem to be giving up too easily these days. From now, I will not give up. PUSH LIMITS, JAIME, PUSH! I'm feeling inferior now. RAHH. I need to CHIA YOU!
On a happier note, its 13 days till I can roam the premises of my dreams. And only 24 days till the end of exams. therefore, i need to study. Study is good, just like running. Running is great. Study is
realllly good.Jaime shall go study and stop hoping for people to stop being useless and stop crapping and start persevering.Cause she knows she can make wonders!
JAIME CAN DO IT! (she's trying to get herself to believe in her. strange, because she has an ego the size of the moon)
"i think i can, i think i can"and i'll believe.
Jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
