Sunday, February 18, 2007
♥ 10:01 PM
cny was great.
and it was completed by 10+.
WAHAA.highheels&handbags- never again.
now i am confused.
and for once, even michelle can't understand.
have you ever felt like you've wanted something so so much, that you would do anything for it, but yet you feel as if you're not sure if its what's good for you and if you'd really like it. as if its the cover that's just deceiving you and luring you in? and when you want to find something to tell you that what you see is the entire truth you see tonnes of it, but then again, you don't know if that's what you should believe because they are/were reasonably different from you. and then you find some evidence that what you see is really what deceives you, and the evidence you look at is from someone who is reasonably similar to you. with similar experiences and who've met probably similar people as you too. but then you just don't want to believe it because, there are also differences, but then you just can't seem to stop worrying?and you don't know what to do, cause people tell you its good and its worth it, but evidence stares blankly into your face, telling you that it sucks, in the point of view of someone so similar to you. and you don't know what to believe anymore, because you want the best for yourself, but you really want it.and you're put in such a horrid dilemma, it as if you're given choice between the devil and the deep blue sea(in which case, i would choose the deep blue sea, but the question now i which is which?).
i put myself into too many unnecessary fixes. but they'll come now, or later. better early than late i suppose.i really think this is unneccesary worry, but i really can't help myself. i think sulin is really rubbing off on me, and i think i'm becoming more and more obsessed. GREEEAT.
anyways, i think should be off to some
REAL work.so long.
oh and, have a great lunar new year!:D
you're always wanting to live someone else's lifejaime. but that's a story for next time.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
