Saturday, December 30, 2006
♥ 5:21 PM
i feel so...frustrated.URGH.
seriously agitated and frustrated.
and i ask myself why.
why jaime why?
and i look at the book review and i know why.
and i look at the msn contacts and i know why.
and i look at my resume and i know why.
its just there to annoy you.true, but it pops me with tonnes of questions about myself, my abilities and my actions.
come on.you know what goes wrong, just imporve and do your best.haven't i tried hard enough?people who don't try do better than me!what's the point.
come on.you know what you want above all, and they follow you, what does that tell you?that i made a mistake publicising what i wanted maybe?
no, that its a great idea, and you're respected.haha, yheah right.DREAM ON.i'm so not respected and its so not a good idea.
but people tell you, you can do it.that's just encouragement, haven't you heard?
okay okay.just do your best okay and stop giving excuses, you have no idea what you're capable ofthat's only what they say.
its the truth, now shut up and tryokay okay, i'll try.
-and this self-conversation ends thanks to my mother who does not trust me-
"and i cry myself to sleep thinking of the injustice"jaime.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
